dove hard into psychology, because I felt like (and there definitely is) somwhting wrong with me. But it made me become much more neurotic...

Many people do the same and perhaps, they are the ones who shouldn't :) Hoever, perhaps, that is the wrong kind of knowledge for what was required, the wrong branch of the rabbit hole.

Similar thing about politics and the financial system, it is good to be aware of all the legal scams that run our system, but to be all up in arms about them can be damaging as well.

It is not just about knowing the scam, it is about understanding the system one operates in.

Hope you are well mate. Been a while.