As you say few people bother to read about this, the official narrative is much easier to follow. Once you start questioning things, you might discover many unsettling facts. It' not just the CIA or MI5, but also the governments that fund them. How do you even deal with the idea that the government of your free and democratic country is involved in drug trafficking, basically bringing heroin to the dealer down your street, which then kills your kid or your neigbor's kid?! If the whole 'war on terror' is a lie, there are other lies, too and then you realize most of your life is based on lies... Too complicated for many. Better stick with the heroic war on terror, bringing democracy, support our troops, blah-blah-blah...such a beautiful narrative!