Radical honesty
I've been trying to apply "not avoiding conflicts and truth" since I have learned about Human Design and my open centers.
For me who is a very private person (believe it or not), someone with trust issues and more in the mix, stating my needs, stating what is hurting, sharing my feelings have always been super hard.
It's such a gift though to be able to share, despite your fear, knowing someone is holding space for you to do it.
The more I speak my truth, the more I discover people who are ready to hold space for me, receive me, hear me out.
This is so precious. Being seen and heard. Feeling safe.
I have been doing lots of manual work and gardening work the last 10 days, and while doing so, listening to [Brene Brown's work.] (https://brenebrown.com/)
She talks about vulnerability, Joy, connections and belonging, being seen and heard. I truly adore her. I have laughed with her, cried listening to her.
I wonder if she heard of Human Design because I found lots of what she says fits so well with the system.
After this week, where lots of radical honesty happened, lots of unraveling, healing and risk taking, I feel stronger than ever than there's no going back. I feel so much stronger for showing up entirely, fears, flaws, darts and all.
2019, you keep on delivering. What a ride...
And you? how are you
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Hello. Currently there are a lot of curation groups and whales curating amazing content, there's no need to buy votes. The downvote you received is to discourage the buying of votes from bidbots. We kindly invite you to join us on the #NewSteem attitude, where good content receives votes and the organic content get the most attention. Buying votes hurts you, other authors and the Steem Ecosystem in general, please don't do it.
@ocbd I was buying votes to feel seen, even if I'm aware it was a trick of the mind. It's also a way of getting a tiny return of energy/money back from being on the platform.
I get crickets whenever I post on any social, Steem was my happy place to imagine and visualize that I was finally getting eyes on what I create. I understand the spirit and why you did, but you're crushing a crucial tool and dream and my desire to share here... It would have been nice to post the comment before downvoting.
You don't know me or my situation, seeing the STEEM I was about to get next week was a big highlight for me. This downvote is really really hurting right now... Not really "kindly" way of dealing with things.
Got the message, painfully. Won't do it anymore...
https://steemit.com/ocd/@ocd/ocd-daily-issue-427 is a ink to their post in case you want to downvote it.
thank you but I hate the downvote concept. not something I want to get into. thank you for the heads up though.
OK. I think you may have been a victim of online cryptocurrency theft. You may or may not want to look into it but I am and may or may not file a complaint.
I think bidbots are a legitimate way to earn Steem cryptocurrency although they can also cause a loss of Steem currency.
I think to only downvote a post because it was helped by a bot could be considered theft.
https://www.usa.gov/online-safety
https://complaint.ic3.gov/default.aspx?
for now @mysearchisover, you're not helping my case and you're not respecting my wishes.
So please stop. Every time I come here, there's a new comment from you about this. This is draining and ruining my spirit as much as the downvotes.
You don't even follow me. so run your battle how you wish but leave me in peace. You're not my knight in shining armor, I don't want this anger on my profile.
Show respect and let me be. STOP. Thank you.
Do you understand that rewards are not yours until post payout? During those 7 days, it is subject to change based on curator evaluations based on their criteria.
If the perceived value the contribution adds to the network does not correspond with the actual payout, we fix it using negative votes. That's perfectly reasonable.
It seems that you suppose that because you bought votes that you are entitled to the payout. None of us are entitled to anything more than what we receive after 7 days. That is what stakeholders decide.
Buying votes does not make your content exempt from curation. Matter of fact, it tends to be an invitation for more careful curation.
If only the government worked the same way, we would have much less waste. If the pay is more than the work, we take it away. It's a simple concept which I hope you will take the time to think about.
If you continue spamming our mentions, you will be banned from the bot. We can be resources to you but you need to get your head on straight and think beyond your own wallet.
Please remove this downvote. :(
who are you talking to @mysearchisover ? I haven't downvoted anything...
@OCDB the #abuse supporting bot that downvoted you. I acknowlege that you are OK with #abuse but I am not. I think you may need to use steemleo.com beginning tomorrow.
I am not ok with abuse. I just want to stay true to my compass, which is not to use downvotes unless something really trashy is happening. Retaliation is not what I want in my body. I prefer focussing on creating than retaliating. :)
One thing I’ve found interesting as diving deeper into HD, is how/where all the other stuff fits in somewhere or somehow - sort of like once we understand the framework of the mechanics, it becomes easier to recognize patterns and which particular dynamics are at play in other perspectives - whether a more overarching concept such as the wisdom of following Strategy & Authority, or more refined complexes such as tendencies of open centers or specific gates/channels...
true. that makes sense :)