RE: Isolation / Sensory Deprivation Tanks - Is it all hype?
Thank you for sharing! I will definitely check our your link! The crazy part about the grief that I felt is that I am a very spiritual person and I understood that her energy remains probably more than most. The night my mom passed away she came to me in a dream. In my dream, I sat beside her at a hospital bed which was at a mix of my aunt's house and a hospital and she told me it was time. I told her it didn't have to be. She said she would be okay and that I would be okay too. I told her I didn't want her to go and she turned into a bird then a butterfly and just like that she was gone. The following day I flew home to my family and a month came into the house as we went to the patio to take some much needed deep breathes of fresh air (this was the house I last saw her at - where I took care of her for a week). I was very emotional but I went into my mom's room trying to find comfort in that she was once there and I thought I felt the moth land on me. I told my sister mom was visiting me. She tells me I'm crazy and the moth is not next to me and just like that the moth landed on me. She starts saying I am imagining things as I remind her of my dream. I said mom came to me because only I would see the signs and know it was her. Then I told the moth "if you are mom go to my sister", the moth leaves my arm and goes to my sister. Then my sister said the same thing about another family member and again the moth proceeds as requested. Since then I never let anyone kill a moth near me. I know she's there and has been there all along and will always be there. It just took a while to let go of all the guilt of every moment I could have talked to her or have seen her but I didn't. I didn't allow myself to remember that I needed me time and that she was proud of me and that I would not have changed a thing about my life if I had the chance. What grief forgets about is hope! Any bit of light can get you through a storm and in the end allow you to find more light! Now I try to remember that the universe is working with me and I can find light if I seek light! Without the darkness we would not appreciate all the wonderful things life has to offer, so I welcome it in hopes of continual growth! Namaste! xox