Everything you've said resonates with me so much. There's this quote by Nietzche that goes something like, the people dancing were thought to be insane by those who couldn't hear the music. Lunacy is the flip side of enlightenment when people can't see past a single layer of reality. Most people run around with blinkers on, blind to the many layers that exist outside their perspective. Yet, some are there on a leash. I've made a similar decision to live away from the mainstream. It's been a hard path but I'm lucky that I had the support from family and the ability to have a choice in the first place. I'm grateful for that everyday, but there are so many people who are forced to be a cog in the machine because it's the only way they know to survive and support their loved ones.

In general the system may be messed up, but to offer a little optimism, I think a paradigm shift is slowly happening, with more awareness in general. I feel in someways, people attract the energies and people attuned to their mental wavelenghts, and I've also been meeting more people who've been living happy and free lives, doing what they love. A lot of my friends are also working independently or for small startups, being happy and free even within a larger system. You aren't crazy at all, but I guess neither are they because what is craziness but a different view point?

I've found inspiration in all your posts. As I'm just starting this journey, they're very useful to me and I firmly believe you're on a beautiful path in life. Keep doing what you're doing and all the best with the rest of your journey.