Sorry to read you are having a tough go at it. Does sound like you have some harsh conditions to over-come. I'm still impressed with all the work and that you are trying. Good to step back sometimes, for sure, and especially can't lose all the fun nature adventures!! Thank you for the foresight here, and it makes me think maybe specializing in certain crops and processes, then trading for the others might be best. Guess that's why the large scale folks do that, right? Haha. Anyways, I hope you enjoy the extra time, and no judgement here. Cheers!