Steem Cameroon contest- Dying matters, let's talk about it.

In the year 2018, I lost one of the greatest friends I've ever had. His name was William. We were friends for almost six years before his passing. William was the kind of friend I knew I couldn't replace. He was my ride or die no matter the circumstances. We had just completed the Advanced levels and he had returned home from boarding school. William had chronic bronchitis and asthma.. We knew of his asthma but not the bronchitis. And in a split second, the combination took away my precious friend.

How I handled it?

I couldn't believe it obviously. I didn't want to believe it. I would always go to his home and just sit in his room just to see if he would walk in any time and tell me it was a prank.
I would still send him text messages just to see if he would reply.
I put all my feelings into writing but it still did not help. I didn't cry for about 3 days after his death. I was in a state of disbelief. But when I finally realized he was truly dead, the well of water I had been holding back finally surfaced so hard I couldn't stop. My family tried to calm me but that was all a waste of time. On the day of his burial, I had the idea to start self harming and perhaps die just so I could get rid of the emptiness I was feeling. But that was just the depression talking. I eventually accepted his loss and moved on.

Until date, I haven't fully recovered but I just have to move on from it. Some days, I write poems to convey what I feel when I think of the fact that he isn't around. When I need someone to talk to about it, I just pray and ask God for a remedy.
The most recent poem was written on the 1st of January.
I paid his family a visit as I've been doing for the past 9 years. It's the only house I can freely go to "langa" on any festive day.

(Poem written by @metugejacy20 'Jaci_write' on flips)
We had planned a future together. To be neighbors forever and things like that. But I've learned not to plan too far ahead cause God has his own plans for us.

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