Birds And The Repentant Man

Assalamualaikum, hope everyone is fine. Alhamdulillah I am also fine with the prayers of all of you, I am Md. Ahsan Habib, my home is in a rural village in the Panchagarh district. I have been thinking for some time about how I got involved in a personal addiction and how I came out of this addiction, I will show you. I hope you will forgive the mistakes in my writing.

Bird hunting was my passion as a child. I have hunted many birds. How many ways did I imagine in bed while going to sleep at night, how to catch birds if I set a trap, I used to think at night and apply it during the day. The first thing I did when I woke up in the morning was to turn the ideas of the night into reality. It takes a lot of effort to hunt birds to get traps. Birds eat food from around the traps. When I saw that the bird went away after eating food but did not step into the trap, then I was very angry with the bird. I thought if I had a bird-killing gun today, I would explain how to eat and leave. I have not been able to kill birds for some time. The birds have become very clever, they don't come to the trap like before. I got so angry, I decided to buy an airgun. I bought an airgun within a few days. I am very happy to get the air gun, I am thinking to myself, this time I will see how the bird eats and runs away.

The first time I shot a bird very well with the Erragon. I have an elder cousin, he used to accompany me. 4/5 days a week we used to go out for bird hunting with Eagan for the whole day. I used to spend the whole day wandering around in the sun, hunting birds, sitting under a tree, and resting, even if my relative's house was nearby, I would not go for a walk. When I was very tired while walking, I used to say to my cousin's brother, Brother, we don't have any past. Why did he say? No, I mean, if you have your parents' house nearby, you can go and eat something this afternoon, I am very hungry. Look, if we search for the ancestral home, we may find it, but we will suffer a lot. Because we couldn't hunt much today. Now if we want to eat something at a relative's house, then we have to bring this prey to them, one thing we do is look for a shop and buy some sugarcane pulp.

I started going backward again, sometimes I could see birds, I was shooting but I could not kill because I was so weak from hunger that I could not keep the target of the shot. Seeing our condition, the guys behind us started making various comments. On the one hand, I can't hunt, on the other hand, my body is shaking due to various comments from boys, hunger, and anger, I started looking for that boy, who said that there is a shop there, I see that boy is not there among many boys. Realizing that I am looking for someone, another boy said to me, are you looking for someone? I said yes, one of you boys said there is a shop here, where is that shop? After listening to my words, this boy became worried and said, "Where is the shop here, there is no shop here?"

There is a small old woman's shop in the direction you came from, but I can't say whether it is open now, but there is no shop here, it is just a little further from my house, I go to that old woman's shop almost every day. He again kept a witness and said that we don't have any shop here except the Hablu Buri shop. Habu could not hear it as he was busy talking to others. Now I say ok brother, how far is your old woman's shop from here? He said that it is not far from where he came from, the old woman's shop after crossing the big tree. The old woman is very angry when I go to get something, she tells me ten things, I was hungry and these words were not good anymore.

Suddenly, a dove bird was sitting in a small house next to a big house. If you want to hunt that bird, you have to enter the house first, how do you enter a stranger's house, so I tell the boy whose house it is. The boy said, Uncle, go inside, no problem, my aunt's house is next door, come, I am also going with you. Saying this the boy came with me. I went inside the house with the boy, took cover, and shot at the bird, but could not hit. The boy is standing behind quietly saying what happened to his uncle, but the bird is still there, before he could finish speaking, I shot again, and this time the bird hit, but it didn't feel good, after flying some distance, the bird went to a cucumber field and fell.
The boy immediately followed the bird and started running, as soon as I followed him and came close to him, the boy shouted, "I'm getting it, I'm getting it" I saw a lot of young cucumbers in their cucumber field, I was very greedy. I said to the boy, whose cucumber field is this? A girl from the boy's aunt's house smiled a little and said to me, will you eat? If you want to eat, you can eat this cucumber field. If you want to eat, I will bring salt. As I said earlier, my stomach was churning because of hunger, so I can eat ballam with a little hesitation.

The girl plucked a few cucumbers and handed them to me and said, "Here, she thought I brought some salt, so the girl left. I had forgotten about the bird for so long. Suddenly, behind me, she said, "Mama, what will I do with this?" Look, the dove bird of my prey, meanwhile, the girl also appeared with salt. I have an air gun in one hand and a small cucumber in the other. I said to the boy that I am very thirsty, the girl laughed and said that if you have cucumbers in your hand, you will quench your thirst by eating them, if you drink water, you will not be able to eat cucumbers. I just looked at him like a fool and said yes. I started eating cucumber to quench my thirst and hunger, not remembering the salt.

I saw my cousin who was with me slowly coming towards me, and as he came closer, I saw the girl shouting at him and saying, "Hey brother, are you here?" When did you meet your mother? That's why mom started calling, how many days later will you tell me? How is the future? If you bring the future, you have never seen it again. After hearing so many questions, I don't know whether I should eat a cucumber or run away from here with a bird. Because we are not going to any relative's house to not give birds, here I see that the relative is about to leave. I saw that the girl's mother also came to the girl's call.

How are you my aunt, my cousin said hello. After listening to her words, I started to think, if this woman is her aunt, then she is also my aunt, but I don't know her. Of course, I don't know because I don't usually go to anyone's house. Pointing to my cousin, the lady asked to know my identity. Now he started to introduce me, the girl who brought salt was listening to my introduction intently and looking at me, she took the remaining cucumbers that were in my hand, and said Brother come inside the house. Think you haven't eaten? How many birds did it hunt? By this time I remembered the words of my cousin if we search for our father's house, we may find it, but we will suffer a lot. I was only thinking about my loss. Meanwhile, the girl was telling me how many hunts she had taken. After getting to know me, the gentle lady, that is my aunt, called the girl behind and told her to quickly fry two eggs. That's why he came to us.

It's been a long time since I saw you, how big you have become. How many ways your mother has helped me, Dad, people don't do this much to your sister either. It felt good to hear about the benefit of mother but I was still thinking about the loss in my mind. My aunt giggled, and my cousin laughed a little guessing my situation. Aunty showed us the tubewell and told us to come and wash our hands and face, I said no, Aunty, we don't have anything to eat, we have to leave quickly if we are late, Mother will worry a lot at home, but aunty will not leave anything, I thought, it is better if we can get out of here quickly, my loss. No, but I can't do it because of my aunt's interest.

Meanwhile, after frying eggs, the girl came and directly said, Brother, I have given rice to the table. I thought to myself how hard it was to kill a few birds today. I was angry with myself, but I had to eat cooked rice. After eating, now it's time to say goodbye. I greeted my aunt and came to the front door. I saw my cousin gave two birds to the girl, but they objected a little for the sake of politeness, but later accepted. After coming from their house, I told my brother that there was not much loss. After hearing my words, he started laughing, why is Balaam laughing? He said do you think I will come with all of them? I wouldn't have given these two birds but they fed us so eagerly, so I gave them, if they didn't feed me I wouldn't have given them. When I came that day, I hunted a few more birds, I was a little late to return home due to my addiction to bird hunting, but as soon as I came near the house, my younger sister ran to me and told me, brother, quietly go to the room and sit to read, a father is very angry today, I gently told him. Why is the father angry? I can't say now, if you don't want to talk, then go to the room without saying a word. We all fear father, my father was a very angry and angry person.

On the words of my younger sister, I also quietly washed my hands and came to the room, after some time father called me for dinner, I came, without any context, and he told me how many birds have you hunted today? I answered with fear that I could not hunt more, I was asked to know the number of birds, which I hunted, I stammered less than that, I said it would be 12/13. From the side, the younger sister said, "No brother, twenty-one in total."

The mother scolded the younger sister and said to shut up, now the father started to explain to me in a soft voice, it is not good to hunt so much, you would have thought that the birds you hunted may have laid eggs in their house, some birds may have small children, you are hunting them. What will happen to those children? I started thinking about my father's words while lying down at night, how many children's mother birds have I hunted, now that motherless bird may be waiting for its mother to come, a mother will bring food, maybe it is crying because of hunger, as happened to me today. When I think about my father's words.

As if I fell asleep in my sleep I dreamed that I was happily hunting birds, I hunted a few, and after some time many birds came together and attacked me, and said that this man killed my mother, someone said that he killed my two small children, there is no end to their complaints. Screaming bachao to escape the attack of several birds at the same time I woke up suddenly my body was shaking, I remembered the words Father how many baby birds you have hunted the mother bird, the mother bird will never return to her home again. small. Tears came to my eyes without knowing the hunger of the bird. I didn't fix the bird hunting in my mind. Today I regret it. I don't hunt birds anymore, I discourage others from hunting birds. Today I don't have a father, but I will always try to follow my father's advice, O Allah, please forgive me.