Writing down helps plus reading back later as in a few days.
I wonder if what you imagine is that strange. If it comes to the future I don't see it positive either but I do know if still alive I will find a way to survive and belong to the group of people who never will fit in to the system. You see them in all those films.

You found a good way to relieve yourself. I truly hope you do not feel anxious 24/7.

A warm embrace to you. Thank you for inviting me.

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