Hello friend, I hope God puts in your way the right gentleman, we all have fear to fail at some point but nevertheless remember that sometimes it is necessary to make mistakes to learn along the way, it is part of our growth process, so do not be afraid to make mistakes.

I understand that you are cautious and you are clear about what you want, great but don't spend time looking for a perfection that doesn't exist, I hope that gentleman with a heart of gold and hardworking appears.