Stages of Life

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Life as we all know puts every individual through a series of stages. Though not everyone goes through the same stages in life, I can assure that everybody gains an extra bit of experience after each stage and starts the next stage much more refined. I have live through a quite a few stages and each stage left me much more experienced than the previous.

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First, The Gentle School Boy. Obedient and submissive, I lived this stage. Rules and regulations defined my personality at this stage of life. My daily routine was very simple and well laid out. The day started with me crawling out of bed at six in the morning. It normally should take an hour to prepare for school, but usually I would make it thirty just so I am not late to school. Breakfast seemed a nuisance and I would leave for school on an empty stomach. Classes were scheduled to start at eight but I was always in school before seven thirty. Not that I liked school very much but every student was assigned a portion of the school to clean and you would be doomed if you failed to clean your portion before class started. Rule abiding, I submitted every test and homework given in class. I guess I stayed within the confines of the rules not because I enjoyed being obedient but because I was afraid of the consequences the came with breaking the rules. We closed school at four and I always made sure to be home in thirty minutes to avoid any quarrels with my parents. And just like that, I lived that stage of my life.

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Next, The Lover. For the better part of my life I was gentle, obedient, and most of all stayed clear of relationships. After graduating from junior high school, the breeze of love blew my way. It was as though my whole system was reconfigured. It was a hot afternoon and I had just finished writing an exam prior to graduation when my eyes fell upon her. I would not say it was love at first sight but I definitely felt a yearning for a connection with her. I didn't go talk to her because the idea of a relationship was foreign to me and I was a bit of an introvert at that time. Though my conversation intelligence had failed me, but my information gathering skill was through the roof. Just before the day ended, I had acquired her social media handle name and had already looked her up. Though an introvert in person, I was a master behind the screens. I engaged her in a conversation and before I realized, we had forged a bond deep in the fires of Kilgharrah. I was the master of sweet talks but only behind the screen. Coincidentally, we would bump into each other at the market place but shyness wouldn't allow us a decent conversation. We were better off staying behind the keys. For the better part of three years, we enjoyed it while it lasted. And just like that I ended that phase of my life.

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Then, The Apathetic. This was a very rocky and difficult stage in my life. It was the aftermath of a terrible break up. Having been drunk on love for a while, it was suddenly excruciating to live without it. In an attempt to pick the pieces, I found myself indifferent to almost everything. The human nature is such that after suffering something that seems like a defeat, we would usually crawl and hide behind something to escape the cruel reality. For me, that was music. All genre of music was appealing to me provided I could relate one way or the other to the lyrics. I built walls around myself and live as king and servant in my castle. All of a sudden, nothing seem interesting not even other people. I lost a lot of friends during this stage because my cruelty was unmatched. Maybe I was afraid of getting hurt again or perhaps it was my true nature. Thankfully I am out of that phase of my life and I hold no grudges towards other people nor do I treat people with contempt anymore.

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I cannot describe the present me, maybe because I am still in that phase. If there is something I observed in my present, it is probably the fact that I try to do things that brings internal peace and calm. Day in day out I am in continuous search for avenues that will improve my life and bring a sense of fulfilment and content. Though I do not know the ultimate purpose of my life, I am confident each stage leads me closer to it.