Birthday week and how I spent it
So my birthday was 7th of December and I know I am little late but I am kinda lost right now, its the end of the year and just trying to hang by the thread.
- I quit my job
- Celebrated my birthday* quietly ofc
- Talking about big steps
I already have talked about me quitting a job but now its official.
I will work for a month and than its finito.
I cant say how I'm feeling.
Feeling lost. Feeling scared. Feeling all the feels.
But i know thats a decision a need to make for sure.
I am so scared what gonna happen to me next year. Some big steps and big changes. Dont know where to start, where to end but this decision made is going to help me get my way and my future.
December is also my birth month.
I have never ever liked my birthday and never celebrated it.
This birthday was just like that. I spent it in my room watching some films.
Then I got to the padel courts to watch tournament where Ana was participating and lost unfortunately. After that I got to my boyfriend and had a blast laying on the floor and just chilling. It went fast but it was okay for me who does not like attention.
Just 2 days before mine was Ana's birthday. Just 6 more years apart haha.
The third thing is me trying to comprehend idea of living with my boyfriend. That just so picky for me and a subject I dont know how to react and feel and just got really into my head. On one hand I am super ready and its something well needed but on the other I am so scared of showing me and maybe not being able to be my full me. Do I loose my freedom and mu character? So lot of things in my head and dont know how to put all of that into words.
Here are some few pictures of first half of december.
