You have used many colors and shades in expressing your idea. One of the areas of psychology studies the relationship between color and the mental state of a person; there is even a color test developed by Max Luscher. There are 8 colors in the test. To put it simply, it can be noted that
red - activity, energy
blue - rest
yellow - change, impermanence
green - protection
black negation
purple - infantilism
brown - body
gray - neutral.
Depending on the combinations of pairs and their place when choosing the most preferable ones, one can judge the actual mental state of a person.
The same color can be desired and denied
Why I am saying all this, I do not know, but it seems to me that an artist can keep this in mind when creating paintings. And also, looking at this canvas of yours, you can find out something about your feelings))

I like your approach to creating paintings, this is definitely not graphomania. And I'm glad to see you in the community and our support program :)