@chireerocks
I know what you mean. also because I catched myself sometimes having thoughts which would keep others in my range. but luckily "only" thoughts not actions. It comes from suffering and thinking not beeing good enoug, wich most part of humans are suffering from. They're as well on their jurney and making experiencies which hopefully bring them at some point that they can love their selves more. And see that give love bringes more than prevent it.
It requires self reflection and will to evolve. Life, Spirit, or how you want to name it pushes us from one direction to the other so we learn out of our failures. but earth is a havy school and everyone is on his right point. that helpes me sometimes to see it positivly. .. or just how it is nor this nor that.

many cheers