Moving forward despite discouragement

garybilbao (62)in Project HOPE • last year

I have days with superlative levels of discouragement. Many things have happened to me and others that I wish they would happen, do not happen. Projects I have in plans that were suspended or delayed due to adverse situations. Goals and objectives that I wish to achieve, but also responsibilities that I must fulfill, duties as a father, son, husband, tenant, business owner and other roles that demand my presence and my best effort. I don't like to look bad with my responsibilities, that overwhelms me; although I have learned to take it "softly" and not stress myself so much. But I am not a professional at it in relaxations, I am still learning to find the balance.

As I told you, I have goals and many of them are high and demanding. I don't like to aim low, I always demand and seek perfection and excellence. However, lately the desire is winning me over: the desire to achieve everything, to achieve it well, to stand out, to do my best and to succeed, not only in the present, but also in the future. And then discouragement, worries, the accumulation of pessimistic thoughts (which almost never appear, but when they do, they come in a big way and wreak havoc) appear.

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And that is what has happened in the last few days. A paralyzing discouragement, that puts me with very low batteries, almost to the point of a depression in all its splendor, I say, for its intensity, not for the time that I have been like this (remember that we can feel down and with symptoms, but when it is more than 15 or 21 days, is when we could be in front of a clinical depression). And that's why maybe I don't need a professional, I know it's temporary and in a few days I will be fine, but this time it was stronger than other times.

"Fortunately" (through blows and experiences) I have learned to cope with my discouragement. Maybe for some of you who read me, discouragements are not a big deal and you consider that there is no need to make so much drama with sad moments. But for someone like me, who has lived with depression for years, managing to get ahead despite the sadness and not stay down, is an achievement just as superlative as the discouragement I mentioned at the beginning of this writing.

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The catharsis are positive, to purify and free ourselves from negative emotions and thoughts, but I think that abusing them will not purify us, it will wear us down and take our focus off the solutions and focus on the problem. Anyway, I'm done with my catharsis and my temporary venting.

Thanks for reading. Don't forget to leave your comment with your opinion, whatever it is, about what I expose in this post. It will be a pleasure to read it and know your point of view.