Bitter

Bitter
Empty
Angry
The world's going to shit
And you can't care less
Even to hold me
Or let me hold you.

I just weep
I have to be resilient
I have to be strong and pretend
I'm not affected.

But maybe it is too much
Maybe I can't take this pain
Maybe I'm done
Maybe I'm out
Like a lost poker game.

Living is worthwhile
But sometimes a pain.
Perhaps the wait will be worth it
You won't throw this away.
Or maybe you'll just leave me
Bitter and in decay,
Expecting no one to save me,
No one to lift the day.

You're cold
And a bitch
But maybe for a reason
Maybe you will only hate me
For a season.
Soon you will return
And put balm on this burn
That you have so wickedly
Imprinted on my sad heart
While looking for a part
In your inconsequential life
Trying to make you my wife
And eek out a living
While giving
You everything in my soul
You just took it in roll
Took it in stride
Made me alive
Just to crush my mind
And break my heart
And put me in a dosedive
Wishing I was never a part
Of your beautiful life
Why should I care
You're not there
You're only in my head
Laying in my bed
Taking me places
Time and again
But leaving me with pain
That you aren't able to balm
With your calm
Demeanor.