I am not great in the 'gladly offering what I want" and I have a huge problem with the fact I only hear some people say what God wants. These are people sharing their interpretation and version of words no one knows who said them first. That's not good enough for me.

I understand people need something to cling to in times of need but if it comes to god he is not the one for me. Cain killed his brother so we are all children of a murderer, he married with whom if he and his parents were the first humans? God himself is a serial killer and is labelled as good and understanding? And if the Jews are the chosen and only ones who will enter heaven why should I bother and sacrifice?
What for? To make life for a small group easier?

I don't believe all those rules are meant for people like me who see that the bible is full of contradictions and if god shaped human (hard to believe) and took himself for an example he has nothing to complain since we do exactly what he did. Threats, murder, war, unreasonable demands, manipulating, discrimination and so on.

Also god wiped out the godess(es) or human did. So I rather stick to the old believes long before all this started. I have more confident in elves, rainbows and pots of gold and Rumpelstielchen.

It is hard to ignore memories because they make us the person we are today. Awareness how we came that far, a bit of reflection is good to remember the sacrifices I made and the results to escape.

With you I agree ww should live in the moment not in the past and try not to worry 24/7 about what the future will look like.

Thanks for reading it is aporeciated.
A sunny day to you
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