Me and Mine: A Letter to Myself

May 15, 2020
11:11pm

Dear self,

How are you? It's been a while since we last caught up. Our schedules don't always seem to match, and I'm finally happy to see you again.

Now that I have you, let's get some things straight.

How are you? I asked you that earlier. How are you, really? What's been going on in your life? Ever felt happy? Sad? Faint? Weak? Embarrassed? Depressed? Anxious? Elated? Excited?

See, we're in a quarantine right now. You're doing online classes. You're dealing with toxic friendships. You're doing your best to be a good son, a good brother to your good friends. Imagine how much of your time, mind, and good heart you're pouring out. You know, self? I couldn't be ever more prouder of you. Even at your most troublesome moments, you just shrugged them off like that and went on with your normal life. In your successes, you never forgot to thank the Lord for it. You showed that even if you are human and you tend to make mistakes, you still do your best to be of service, to be a good friend -- brother -- shoulder to cry on.

Self, I know that a lot of people always mistake you for this overconfident, self-seeking, attention-craving, perfectionist moron. You admit it at times, but even if you are a perfectionist, I don't see you the way they see you. I see you as someone who worked his way to the top to inspire others around him.

Self, I know that a lot of people can't stand you no more, and decided to let go of you. I've seen you do everything to keep it, but I know it was God's will to take them away from you. Let them go, now. Let them go. I can't stand seeing your heart with thorns of the past sticking out of it.

You may have done so many wrong things, and you may have lost so many friends over the years, but... self... this is what I want to tell you. NEVER LET THAT BECOME A HINDRANCE IN INSPIRING MORE PEOPLE. Your garbage today is garbage, but tomorrow is a different day: you have the choice to do more garbage or start making diamonds.

Never give up on the dreams that keep you fuelled for success. Never give up on the people who actually support you -- your family, true friends, your community, God.

KEEP THE FAITH, self. Don't let go of it.

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. - Isaiah 41:10

Keep going, self. Keep going. I love you, and I'm here for you. I'll always be at the back of your head.

Love,

Your inner self xx