MY PATH AND MANY LIVES I HAVE LIVED

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All my life, I wake up from my sleep in the middle of the night being scared of seeing a vision I never could understand.

As I began to grow older and understand things better, I realized that these visions and things that kept me up at night, are vague memories of my past life.

MY DEATH AND REINCARNATION

This may be hard for you to believe but, I now know that I have died many times in this world, and I have come back many times to this world. It is something i call; reincarnation.
You probably do not understand it, that is why you do not believe in it.
I am "reincarnation" .

I feel something terribly wrong this time. Because this time around, I feel a strong connection with my former life. Unlike the other lives I have lived; I never felt a strong connection or have memories like I do now.
It seems to me that I miss the last period which i lived in, and as the day and time passes by, I get a stronger connection to my passed life.

I know I cannot go back, but I can no longer deny that I miss that time, it seems to me that - that time was the time meant for me; the beautiful jazz music, the nice and lovely farm houses, the cars that were not yet electric, the love that was always new, when homes were homes... It is hard to explain but the attachment feels stronger than I can say.

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MY LOVE

I miss my dark skinned beautiful wife with whom I was married to; yes, I can feel her, I can almost smell the scent of her perfume or hear the sound of her voice that has been erased from my memory.
Though I might not know her name anymore, but if I had the chance to speak to her again, I would tell her;

"I am very young again, but my love for you is still very old."

I miss my friends that sat together with me and when we would drink cheap liquor together.
I miss the church hymns which I sang with my church choir. I loved music then, just as I love music now...

"I do not know where I come from in my former life, but I miss it. A life that I lived in another body which is no more."

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MY PATH

I know that I have killed another man, I know that I have been a soldier and been killed by another man. I know that I have lived a good life and I know that I have lived a bad life.

I have come back again because I had not accomplish my task of coming to this world. All those life's, I never found out what my purpose is, or why I ever existed.
Now that I have found it; it is time to live for the last time, love for the last time and be sad for the last time.

The time has come to teach the world about the universe so that I would be set free from it. This is my purpose. Even though at this point I no longer fear dying; I am tired of dying.

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This is my path, and so it begins...

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