It sounds like you're feeling a bit overwhelmed and stressed about your Steem transactions! It's understandable to feel that way, especially when it seems like your efforts to give back to the community aren't leaving you with much for yourself. Remember that self-care is important too! Take a deep breath, put on some music, and maybe treat yourself to something nice (like a coffee ☕). Your humor and creativity shine through in this post, even in the midst of stress. Keep being you and know that your contributions are appreciated! 💖