Getting Dark | Suicidal thoughts

When I first started learning literature, I remember my teachers telling me that “if you guys learn literature more, you will start to get used to the darkness”. I was very confused at that time because what we learn for literature at that time was considerably bubbly. So I saw no way how can it get any darker.

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I recently wrote a free verse and when I’m done with it I suddenly notice that my writing is getting darker. I write more and more about melancholic and dark side of the mind now. Then I remembered what my teachers told at that time. I wrote this when I suddenly remembered the tv series I watched some time ago; 13 reasons why. I timed myself and it took only 14mins to write that. I could not imagine my old self to write something as this so calm as this. But now I think, I’m more seasoned to melancholic stuff after learning depressing stuff over and over again. What my teacher told at that totally make sense now. I thought of sharing my recent writing with you.

Suicidal thoughts:
They just started so lame
Like what if I did that.
Laughed them off as naïve
jokes and thoughts at first.
The second, third, forth and some
more times after the first,
They too were passed for the same
sense of humour and blunt.
But a sudden thought threatens
The peace of a mind where peace
is already gone! The bothered hunch
What if I really took it serious.
One day.

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