I understand how you feel. A father's presence is everlasting in our hearts, and his memory continues to live on within us. My father died in Oct 2021, After the breakfast he was doing routine work, I remember it was the holiday, and he felt pain in his heart it was a matter of an hour and I came back in the ambulance with my father's body, Sudden death left a trauma in mind and the life and the memories stuck there for forever.