Who am I?

I'm Rita, I'm 20 years old. I live with my family in the South parts of Nigeria. I'm a 300 level student in English Language major. And I'm the second of 4 children.
I'm the girl who everyone calls crazy😌 In a good way of course!.
I don't have that many friends because I like to keep my circle small so I can concentrate which is weird especially for someone who hopes to be a celebrity one day🙄
I have more male friends that female and this is practically because boys are more simple and less complicated to relate with than girls...My opinion though. 😒
I Love music and nature and fashion and art and movies.
I'm that girl that easily forgets vital information 😩 I know,it's bad and I'm working on it.
Most people at school know my name ,I don't know theirs which is so unfair but can you blame me.?
Some of them look so alike, it's difficult to differentiate 😔
I'm very aware that there's more to me than i believe but it's so hard to know the more especially because of the kind of person that I am.
I'm complicated even for me 😩
And I don't know how everyone keeps up. God bless them.
Now I'm in my third year in college and I'm so confused.
I have identity crises and grave fear for the future.
I hope to discover myself someday and be able to determine which direction I should take.
Until then, I'm just the gliding along and hoping to be as happy as can be cause life is short.