Temporary and short are our stay in this world and we must enjoy it with God in our hearts, minds, and souls

cryptopie (81)memberin CCS • 15 days ago

Beautiful and ugly moments in our lives are temporary and will soon pass-away but we have to think positively because life should be about enjoying it while we are in our temporary stay.

The years of my youthful days are over, now that I had grown older but still in the prime of my life and living like a vegetable makes me feel that being young are the moments of ecstasy which is one of a kind for even maybe animals as we can see them in puppies and kittens, they are always playful and full of energy. I hope that in heaven I will be like that if I were able to reach the destination that I wanted which is to live with God in heaven where there are many mansions. It is said in the bible that the ones that will be worthy of salvation will live like angels which are spiritual beings which doesn't tire around, doesn't experience pain, and all the negative emotions that we experience in this world. That is why I am not clinging into this world but to the new heaven and the new earth which will be the new residence of people who will be deemed worthy of going to there and I am not talking about Christians but also all people of many backgrounds because God the father himself also saves.

Anyway, it just feels like yesterday that I am enjoying my youth where I have a full energy and in a very happy disposition despite that we are living in a quite poor condition without doing the things that other families does like celebrating a birthday, going out to eat in a restaurant, or having vacations. But since I had grown not to experience those, I do not miss those activities although it would have been great that if I did together with my family because of course it creates sweet moments which we can remember and cherish for the rest of our lives. It is just like remembering the days of my youth because I really can compare those years with my current body's disposition and that comparison makes me realize that I did experienced a euphoria which was cut a few years later as my illness manifested itself already until I thought that it was just normal but nothing couldn't be more further from the truth that I actually am being tortured already in the process.

Now it does feel like I am a thousand year old man and I could say that it is much worse than that because of the involvement of my handicap and what ails me inside where I can always feel the excesses of poison in my body constantly reminding me that I am living in the worst possible condition that a person could experience. Heck if I am not a spiritual person I could have taken my own life for the reason that nobody deserves to live like how I stated it because I am far worse than a captured animal in a cage as other people has the last say on how I will feel for the rest of my prodigal and tortured type of living. Now I am valuing the people who are around me more because they are the ones that are around that truly cares for me. I am also in the rat race of trying to prepare in financially securing myself more because I do not want to be a heavy drag to other people which might care for me but not in the far level on how my parents does for me.

Even if I am living in this constant state of shittiness, it is still fun to live, but in my case it depends only if my immediate family is still existing with me because I will never feel so alone if that happens, it is because of my handicap which forces me to need the help and support of others aside from my need to have an emotional support that only my family can ever do. Well of course it is a part of life but not like I will have to experience a far more worse life even if I would be cared for by others because I do not want to be institutionalized and it is not the option that I prefer but I am sure that at least some of my relatives would take me in if things get worse for me because after all I still have a value which they can take part of and it is the only thing that maybe my relatives will try to be my guardian because of the benefits that they will receive. I maybe over-exaggerating but that is what I am seeing right now and trusting God on what he can do in order for me to live a more livable life while facing the fast-approaching darker sunset of my life.