From what I've read of your posts @honeyscribe, not only are you dealing with family and peer pressure, but your culture, like mine, seems to focus so much attention on exterior beauty. Believe me when I say I used to want to be invisible. I used to wish the walls would just swallow me up so I didn't have to talk to anyone. It was a long road to get to where I am and I can finally say that I'm comfortable in my own skin...even if I could stand to lose another 20 pounds. :)