Welcome! Here is my pep talk. Lol .. I would do all of these. Please forgive me if I have made an assumption that does not apply to you..

• Find very successful people with similar experiences.
• Tell everything you know. Protect yourself and your family and create an anonymous account if you need to. If you were tricked then hey you were tricked and people are just going to have to understand. There is plenty one can do to come to terms with this and there is plenty you can do to help other people avoid those mistakes and help yourself feel better. You can saves lives via the Internet.
• I hear MDMA is pretty good for PTSD. Educate and plan it out to make the most of it. This may open some doors but the rest is up to you. Also this is not good for nerve cells so if I had to do that it would be limited.