losing someone

''Grandma is gone''

This three words felt like a dagger to my heart, i could not believe it. That day which happens to be on the 8th of September, 2017, my siblings and i were all siting together playing when we got a call from our dad who had to travel to the village due to grandmas illness, on picking it dad's voice was not as usual, then we knew all was not well. When we asked, he spilled it to us saying ''your grandma is gone'' i almost fainted but later got myself together, then i asked again and he told me the same thing. I thought i was a big girl and i wouldn't cry if i lost someone but i couldn't withhold the tears as they poured out of my eyes like a running tap. It was really hard but i knew i had to accept it.

I guess maybe it's my first time of losing someone that's why it was so had for me to accept, or i was too close to her even as old as she was. My grandma was 91 years old before she died. I was told that it is not good to get close to old people because you do not know when they would die. Maybe that was my problem, i got too close to her, but i did not regret it.

There is this saying that says ''you don't know the value of what you have until you lose it''. I'm very grateful to God that i knew the value of my grandma before losing her. You know why because my grandma is a very nice person. She is hardworking, kind, generous and loving, to be sincere she is one in a million, what i'm i even saying she is one in a billion, a trillion to end it all up she is one in a kind.

My grandma is a peaty trader. She sales little provisions in the front of our house in the village. She is very generous, she gives to every one in need that comes her way. The whole community testified of her during her funeral. From the little i know of my grandma, she never complains, she's not greedy, she loves people, and she cares a lot for people.

My grandma's funeral was on the 14th and 15th of this month. The wake keep was on 14th, while the final burial was on the 15th. During the final burial, two people from the environment where she lived and the church where she worshiped were asked to come and testify about her. One mrs Bolanle Taiwo who came from the environment said grandma was just like a mother to her, she could not say much as she burst into tears seeing grandma lying lifeless and helpless in her coffin. I felt the woman's pain and also started crying.

There was also an old lady in the church by name mrs Abimbola Akani who said mama fed her for 2 month when her children lost contact with her and could not send her money for feeding. Hearing all this about my grandma i was so touched and proud of her. Grandma was a rear gem.

I poured out more tears forgetting that i'm in the public or i'm now a big girl when grandma was been let into the grave.It was then it dawned to me that i will never see her again, i felt like going in with her, or like stooping them from putting her there. I could not think straight anymore, i just kept on crying.

You may say i'm been too emotional or i'm been childish, but i alone know how much she has impacted in my life. i'm going to miss her so much. If you ever met my grandma you will know what i'm talking about. Now i know how hard it is to lose someone close to you, or someone special.

To you all that have lost someone close to you my condolence, i believe you can heal up just like me i'm already healing even though it's difficult, just believe such persons life has been fulfilled, and it's time for the person to go, so he/she will not make any more mistakes in life.

Thanks for reading my little story, i hope you enjoyed it.