Help me!

Gm everyone ,Happy Tuesday !!!

As I write this I'm already feeling a bit of nervousness just preparing for it. I always think about it more than I should. I try and talk myself out of it every time and think of at least 5 reasons why I should wait another day. I dont know why it happens every time. It doesn't come as easy to me as it did 5 years ago and oh how I wish I never stopped. I'm completely ready at the start of the track then I notice my shoelace is untied . Any other person would simply tie it and move on but not me. I start to imagine a terrible accident happening and decide maybe I came at the wrong time. You can imagine at this point I feel even more defeated and decide maybe ill just walk. Then I look around the track and see very few people . I figure as long as I'm far away from everyone they will never see how slow I am. Guys running is fun and I enjoy it but I always get so nervous before my run. Is this normal does anyone else have the same issue ?

I haven't ran in about a month and before that it had been a few more months. Im slowly trying to get up there and run a 5k in about 30 min. I know its going to take a lot of training but its not impossible. I'd appreciate any tips and suggestions from any one who is on the same journey or advanced. Have a wonderful day and wish me luck🍀