...Often accompanied by the thought: "This is fucking pointless," without referring to your existence.

Hmmmmmnnnnn….I think I've had that thought many, many, many times in this life...and, I've kind of had a revelation of sorts that, after we're dead...we have a quick and sudden enlightenment that most of the shit we concerned ourselves with on this planet, in the form we knew...was pointless and total waste of energies. :>/

Death, might be a welcoming back to reality experience? Little deaths while still in this physical form may be equivalent to small enlightenments being able to comfortably say, or think..."fuck it... this shit ain't worth worrying about"

I kinda like your style @penderis ...