Chapter 2 part 2

Bacau, a nice city to grow up in. I'm telling you, although it was no big city, it was big enough to have diversity. And diversity is what makes people better, in my opinion. It teaches you to accept all people, and respect them for the simple fact that they are human beings.

But as I was saying, I didn't have a lot of friends the first year in my class, I kinda told everyone how bad their English is and the girls were pissed off, or wanted me dead, or something. But there was this one girl that stuck by me, although I was a jerk. She defended me, and kinda liked me. She was a good girl, I think she still is, but I have no way of knowing how the big city changed her.

Anyhow, I liked this rocker... for the sake of this story line, lets call him Axel (he doesn't look like him, but I made him into this legend in my mind). I kinda stayed all the breaks with him, while he smoked and I didn't at the beginning. I started smoking in winter that year, but that is a different story.

I still am a sucker for guitar players, it comes from the fact that my dad and uncle played the guitar, and I thought it was manly to see someone do that.

But this guy had them all, looked like someone from Matrix, played the guitar and was uncool enough to talk to me. I wasn't a popular kid in high school, quite the opposite. I avoided the spot light, and was too sincere to ever have the stage.

And lets call the friend that had the courage to be my friend in high scool Alice. Alice used to come with me in breaks, and I used to go to Axel. And I think that between them was chemistry or something, cause he asked her out, not me.

Me and Axel kinda stayed in the same neighbourhood and after he and Alice got together, we met at some point. It was winter, he had the Matrix trenchcoat on him and I kinda looked like a pitzy ( in Romania we call pitzipoance someone who kinda dresses like a whore, but isn't really one).

Because he went ahead and started a relationship with Alice, I kinda wanted to make him just a good friend of mine, with which you could talk about anything, and he would know what to say. So we kinda ended up being just friends.

So we met up in this alley, it was winter, as I said earlier, and I was dressed up cool (I iked to think that). I think I never told Alice, but I think I told Axel that I had a big crush on him before he was with her. I remember this part because it was my favorite one that year. I remember him being amazed that I told him that, and grabbed me and pushed me over a wall, and kinda kissed me there. I was so shocked, I didn't have anything to say at that point.

I think I told him then that it was a mistake or he told me that, I don't recall well, but what I know is that we never kissed a second time. That moment stuck in my head for a loooong time, cause he made me have a secret.

But I always was amazed of a fact... I think Axel told Alice what happened that day, and she never whispered a word to me. I felt sometimes guilty cause I betrayed her, but I also lived the moment, and relived it many times in my head.

I also like how life twists and twirls the faith of people as it pleases and there was an irony that year that I had found out a looot later...

To be continued.