freewrite again

freewrite
i hear fireworks. they've been going off since last night. i don't mind. happy birthday america. i'm not white, but still american. that's a weird thing to say. i wonder if internment camps will ever come back. scalia said if you didn't think it could happen again, you're dreaming. then he was killed. or died. maybe killed. so many conspiracy theories now. not conspiracies anymore i guess. ok i stopped thinking. blanking...i see the moon. ok still thinking of conspiracies. i need to stop watching random youtube videos. but this one is actually good. it's an insane coincidence that the sun and moon appear to be the same size. it's because the sun is 400x bigger than the moon, but also 400x futher away. what are the chances right? i don't think i'd be surprised if the moon were artificial. i don't think i'd be surprised if the universe were artificial. simulation theory has some pretty good logic backing it. elon musk and bank of america even think so. but if that's the case, what the fuck are we? just players? like rick and morty in that episode where they play roy at blips and chips? if that's true then i'm really fucking wasting my life. well what else would i be doing? i'd be outside more. i'd go climb a mountain. and actually make it to the top. i tried once with my friend, but we had to turn back. so sad. such a depressing walk back down. we stil had fun though. i don't regret it. no, i don't want to think about regrets. because i don't want to end up posting them. they did flash through my mind though. is that cheating for a free write? maybe, but fuck it. too bad.