It Has Always Been You

It's been 2 years I liked this guy's name, John. He is a man who I think is very special, although he is cold but his romantic nature to the woman he loves to make people stunned. The woman's name is Sara. She is beautiful, elegant and has a very beautiful voice. Sara is my best friend, but I love the person she loves. Sara always tells me about John, sometimes my heart is crushed to hear it, but what can make? He is my best friend. More crumbling when I know John, Sara and I are classmates.

The day keeps going with the rhythm of time is getting faster, not feel I've entered the 2nd semester in grade 9. Lately, I'm getting closer to John. Near in terms of just as a friend. However, his proximity to Sara became increasingly widespread.

One day, my friend said that John was comfortable with me. I do not understand, but we often fight and just face to face each other delek. I'm happy, but that does not mean he likes me right?



The moon and the moon pass, now my health is getting worse, I'm coughing not stopping, maybe just hurt and I just ignore it. Then one day I went to the hospital to check on my health.
"Dock? What's wrong? "I asked confusedly.
"Nothing." The doctor made me even more curious.
"Dock? Is it true? May I see? "
"I have to meet your family."
"But dock, I'm really curious .."
When I see it, I can only smile and say,
"It's okay dock .."
"What do you mean is okay? This is already very bad. Your time may not be long, Anna. "
"It's just God's will, I'll be fine dock."
"It's a recipe for you."
"I do not really have a dock. Maybe a break will make me more comfortable. "

Really, to be honest I'm very disappointed. However, this disease did not make me despair, I am not a family that is well, my father is dead and my mother left me since childhood. I just live in a very small shanty hovel. Only me alone.

The longer, the disease becomes more pronounced. But I can not do anything, work just can not, the way was really hard, I can only surrender myself. However, I tried to come to the hospital and check my condition again, then the doctor sentenced me that I would die in three months. God, what exactly are you planning?

I spent the good times where I had to leave my friends, John and the people around me. But, John? I can only see it from a distance, he has been with Sara, really I sincerely.

Time passes, this is 1 day before 3 months. I already told my friends that I was sick, everyone already knew except John. I'm going to tell John today.
"John? Meet yuk ", I said through a short message.
"What are you doing?"
"Wanna talk about something."
"Here, please."
"Can not, I wait in the street *******. 03.00 Hours "
Actually, I've been waiting from 12.00.

Six hours had passed, John did not come. I'm afraid my time is up, John. Then, five minutes later John came to me.
"John, finally came too," I say with a smile.
"Yes, sorry late.", Putting up his flat face.
"Here." I gave it an envelope containing the letter. John almost opened it.
"Eh .. Do not open it first, just then."
"When?"
"Later you know too."
"John, do you want me to visit this restaurant? Good loh. "
"May deh.", Fixed his flat face.

When I got to the restaurant, I ate my favorite food while John just watched me eat it really gusty. When I eat it, I tear my eyes a little, I wonder when my life will be taken or will it end like this or will not I be able to eat this ramen again or can I not see his face seeing me eating so hard? Really funny.

"Lo why cried?"
"What the hell is this time bust", wiping my tears.
"Anna .."
"Yes?"
"Your nose is bleeding."
"It's common, if it's hot like this hahaha."
"And your face really pucet, native"
"Hah? I do not ever see my face so I wrote it. "

From there, I did not realize anything, but I saw John looking into my eyes with worry, yes I fainted and I was taken to the hospital. Maybe it's time. I saw him in the hospital calling my friends, but he could not see me. And he read my last letter.

"Dear John,
This is my letter to make me fit again waiting for you, I actually want to talk before, just I'm afraid when I will not be enough to talk at length with you lo, abis already 3 hours lo not appear-front me, John maybe when lo ngebaca this letter I may still be there, but John .. 2 this year lo ngisi life I mixed deh, seneng there is sad there is kesuh already rich nano-nano really. In conclusion, I like the same lo, not like anymore, but maybe already sayang times yes, I know this is not good after I know I like udh people who liked my own friend, but emang ya feelings can not diboongin. I'm so happy today I can meet you, you have to! Surely you will come right? Lo is not someone who likes to keep promises. I'm so happy you can cheer my best friend, Sara. I'm so happy we ever chat and ever deket, it's the best moment in my life, John. But, I'm sorry if I ever ngebetray Sara, sorry I've never kesel same two of you, sorry I've really love you, John. Love to Sara and my other friends if I really love them. Lo well, John. Now I already can not ngejagain lo again, can not help you learn math again. And you should be happy with Sara. And John, because I really like you, I can not stop liking you now and I also can not pretend not to like you. I can not see if I like you. I can not interrupt you and I'll stop trying to let you like me. But, if I want to slowly loinggalin lo, I think this is the best way. I think this death has its advantages as well, I will not be jealous of seeing you Sara again anymore right? But maybe this feeling will not end.

Love, Anna "

I see him cry, is it so sad? But, I was surprised when he could see me.
"John ..."
He did not come back to me, he just looked at me with anger. I slowly approached him, I thought he would be scared, but he just kept quiet and still see me. When I reached the closest point about 5 cm in front of John, I held his right cheek, smiled and said,
"John, why are you looking so rich? Let go of me, John. You do not have to cry. "I wiped his tears.
"Lo should not be sad, John. I'll be fine. I'll promise you if you'll jagain Sara. "
John tried to grab my hand but not touched at all, suppose I could feel once more the touch of his hand. Then he looked down and said,
"Anna, it has always been you. It will always be you. "
"It has always been you too, John. I'll be seeing you next time. Goodbye, John. ", Disappeared from his gaze and returned to where I was supposed to be.