Yes! I wish all of that too....you are so much more than what is visible on the outside my beautiful daughter.....I wish you could see what a wonderful person you are! I have some of those same regrets....I can't believe I thought I was fat when I wore a size 5! I think I was blinded by my self-loathing in teenage years and I am so sorry that I passed that on to you. I certainly don't see you the way you describe yourself, but then I am your mother and I do have a half century of life behind me now....be your beautiful self and love life. <3