I feel your pain ... my grandmother who lived with us ... died ... and it was a horrible loss ... and now that my aunt ... who was like my 2nd mother .... has an aggressive cancer .... it’s killing me . ... I keep thinking I’m not doing enough while she’s alive ... I have so much guilt ... I know I could and should do more for her .
It is really painful to lose anyone especially those with close familial ties.
We are too hard on ourselves when all they want is for us to accept the loss and remember their lives.
Thank you for sharing your pain and I know I am not alone.