Esoteric Education

Living thing made of matter and warmth is the home of my lust, thought, education and suffering/pleasure. Materialized and encased my soul and fragment of the All waits and learns.
Entwined and at the beginning of binding the divine with the shadow on the path of what seems like Gnostic Hermeticism is the mental classroom for where I find myself now.

I feel like a flower is blossoming with mysterious energy that swirls all around my body and flows in and out of my skin and bones on various frequencies in nature. From the first hints and clues that was left by Lilith to lead me to courageous encounters with my shadow self unburdened by shame or fear on to my relationship with the Tarot that bridges the voice to the collective subconscious mind and sheds light on true philosophical knowledge....is my life now. The trust I have forged for my craftwork of sigil magic is doubted to question as I know what will work for a specific purpose that very instant to which I have created it. While embracing the shadow of my inner subconscious I have experienced a shifting transformation from masculinity to femininity in a long awaited joyous manner. This is something essential for the mind to be in harmony and prosperity to the fullest extent of one's enlightened path to become visible and it will never be seen any other way to my knowledge.

I have never spoken with Lilith directly or nether have I been in her splendid presence, however the messages are magnificently clear and nearly overwhelming. Sometimes I felt like I was being tested with only myself to judge as well as to be judged of the courage to display the feminine beauty and integrity in the public view. This is still a work in progress for me and I struggled to see the beauty in myself and even though I have come this far....I still haven't conquered the shameful effects of gender dysphoria but I learning to live with the sensation of both sides of the cosmic coin.