Saying Goodbye

Was it love or just a feeling
Was it love or just a healing
Healing from the hatred
The hatred of your heart

This love was just a figment
A figment of our minds
Something we could ponder
But never expect

Time and again
You filled my heart with disdain
Hook and reel
Then hurt and release
Lay the blame squarely on me

You take me for a fool
A gullible idiot
Who'll swallow your lies
And buy your stories every time

I struggle each day and night
To swallow my pain and move on
But depression sinks it's deadly hooks
Skins my flesh
My groaning no one hears
Cause outside I look just fine

But you conveniently forget what you have done
And walk back without a care
For a doormat you take me
So you can step on my despair

When love has come
But soon is gone
It begs the question
Was it there?

I don't really want to say goodbye
I don't want to leave you
But now I have to go away
Stay away from you forever

So I pick up my pieces
I get on the midnight bus
I got my reasons but darling I won't explain
I'll always love you
But tonight's the night I chose to walk away

Inspiration from Sam Smith's track Midnight Train