Thank you @riverflows. Writing this is for me the only way to go. It is something that I'd rather not had written, but because there is nothing I can do to change the facts, this is my outlet... Also because I believe that this boy deserves to be on the blockchain forever and for me as a reminder that life truly is precious and way too short. Thank you for your kind comment, it is something I cried about a lot while I was writing it. A tragedy you wish on no one, especially people you love. The whole experience put me back with my feet on the ground...and I'm holding my kids close.