Yeah, I totally agree! I've been a rebel my whole life and very suspicious of any kind of organized systems of thought. Although I also studied songwriting and music technology as soon as I had enough information to do what I wanted to do I would be off to the races doing my own thing. It took me YEARS to really take a deep look at Buddhism because I was distrustful of it and all the teachers! It is a pointer to truth and the truth is inside of us and at some point we have to put the teachings aside, kill the Buddha and look within. Which I do every morning and evening :) ha ha