The guilt I think comes from outside being angry that you are acknowledging your feelings. So many people are unhappy but they find some pride in "being tough" (i think its a social conditioning, sort of like anti suicide teachings as a way to keep people participating in a slave system) . Then when you feel so strongly that this is not how life should be people say "well look at bad this is ". I dont feel better, because it bums me out that that is also so bad lol. I want everyone to be happy not just me better off than others haha