I don't know why in reading this I saw it as an abstract black and white movie with a solitary man that quickly switches from scene to scene as the sound of the movie tape flaps against the projector.

I enjoyed reading your piece - Your writing always has that element of surprise and truth intermingled together ambiguously. So as much as the ambiguity of life frustrates, it is a part of your creative process ;)

Staring at a wall unknowingly I think gives our mind a rest from the monotonous or overbearing stressers. But what's great about staring at a blank wall (blank canvas) is that sometimes an unexpected splash of colored thought spontaneously appears and a new idea is born. Then tomorrow and the day after don't hold enough time to contain the universe inside your mind. This would be the positive side of ambiguity.