I can stare at a wall and not really think anything or be completely uncertain that I was thinking about anything in particular.
I consider the ability to not think of anything to be a gift that few humans experience. Example: At bedtime, lots of people suffer insomnia, and it generally originates from their mind not being able to chill out and stop reminding them of all the issues that occurred that day. The ability to turn all that off and sleep is priceless, whether it comes from looking at a wall or from any other action we take to get the effect.
The most difficult times for me in speaking to people is when I have to call and talk to someone on the phone to clear up some error their company (or bank) made. In those conversations, my tolerance levels for hearing scripted stupidness is very thin, it wears away quickly and then I am angry.
I find I actually have higher tolerance levels for people whom are either purposefully assholes or what I consider stupid and simple minded, emotional. Not that I don't cut them off but I do shut down and have soooooooo much patience then. Computers well they should know better haha and I will punch a screen if the mouse does a double instead of single click or something takes longer to open.
I expect people to be slow or narcissistic etc but when my patience gets tested is when I have taught them, helped with a problem etc and they still don't pause to think and do. Even worst when it is a conceptual problem in a way, like copying images on your phone is a concept of working with files and recognizing the patterns shared over almost all touch based interfaces such as long press for context etc.
Haha anyway, thinking about nothing is good but it is not nothing as in a white space, I struggle with that. And if I am thinking about a empty space that is still thinking about something.
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I'm going to try that, but one of the issues I'll have with mellowing rather than venting is when they don't think and do, as you pointed out, and I realize nothing is doing to change. Nothing ever makes things better in those conversations, and just raises my BP for a while, so I need to do something other than getting mad. :)
Breathe :) you know that point of exhaustion after rage, you need to skip to that step, controlled, does not mean you are not angry in fact I think it keeps buildingbut is kept in check with the resignation that this is your lot.
Like the hulk says :the trick is that he is always angry.
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