Start with what you have and be thankful and build from there . I have lost everything I had and i am slowly building it back . A few few years after i lost everything my dad drank himself to death . Lost my grandfather to a heart attack whil on the operating table . Be thankful for what you have been given and grow from there i know it sounds cliche but if you dont find a guiding light something good to help guide you out . How can you find your way out of the dark .