I just had another DMT trip. It was fucking scary!!!

And again I tried to smoke DMT, it was about an hour ago. And it wasn't fun.

I had about 50mg of those yellow NN-DMT.
I never experienced a breakthrough and thought that TODAY is gonna be the day where I get it.
My girlfriend went to bed and I told her I wanna smoke DMT now. She is always against stuff like this, but I felt good letting her know that I'm gonna try it.

So then I set in front of my computer and started some strange DMT music on youtube. xD
All the time I have the feeling, that I am still not ready for this, but I thought its just a stupid thought and it will disappear.
I took my freebase pipe and putted the DMT into it.
And then I started to heat it up.
The first few hits were nothing special, since I already tried it 2 times before.
I set there and started to see how the light vibrated in the whole room.
In my room I have a table light, which I dimmed very very low so the room was quite dark, but after those few hits my room started to look much more illuminated.
But all this is nothing, I already experienced this stage in that I was, so I thought now I will get some more hits!

I heated up the pipe and pulled more.
I did this a few times, and didn't noticed any strong geometric stuff or something.
But then, I heated up the pipe a little more then before. It was so much vapor coming out of the pipe and I inhaled it all!
A few seconds later, my table started to look weird getting darker and darker.
Then I closed my eyes and BOOOOOOOOM!
I was sucked into a deep black hole that felt like its infinite and it was so fucking scary.
My mind started to talk and saying "YOU WANTED THIS! NOW EXPERIENCE IT! YOU CAN'T ESCAPE IT!"
I started to panic and wanted to stop it now!! But I wasn't able to.
My mind said to me "FUCK YOU, YOU ARE STILL NOT READY FOR IT!!"
It was all sooo fast and happend in a few second I guess.
Then I opened my eyes and realized FUUCK I AM BACK!
In that black hole I've forgot that my eyes were closed...
Everything looked strange and I just wanted it to stop, but I was relieved that I'm not in this black hole anymore.
My body started to sweat sooooo hard, it was a fucking sweat attack.
I don't really remember what I saw or thought in this time after I opened my eyes.
I just know that I had the need to lay on the floor, because it was colder there.
After I lay down on the floor I thought about what my girlfriend would think if she enters the room and seeing me lying there. xD
After a few minutes everything became normal, I still saw some kind of vibration of the lights but nothing special anymore.

Well, that was it. It's now about 1,5 hour ago.
Again no breaktrough, but I went further this time then on the last two attempts.
The fucking black hole was scary and I feel now even more not being ready to breaktrough.
But I guess it's just some stupid thought that I need to overcome.

Hope you liked reading my experience.
Did you tried DMT?
How was it for you?
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