I don't get any form of welfare. I used to get food stamps, but they kept making it harder and harder to reapply even though my situation hasn't changed. They deny most people disability several times and maybe you'll get it after years of appeals and a workload equivalent to being able to work to fight for it - which I don't have the ability to do - but I would never win an appeal anyway because I don't take drugs, and they will deny you if you don't take drugs, or haven't tried literally ALL the drugs. A friend of mine worked in that department and saw an epileptic person get denied because there was one drug they hadn't tried ...which they couldn't afford without insurance ...which they couldn't get insurance without a job ...which they couldn't get a job because they were seizing several times a day. They even had a seizure right there in the disability office. Still denied.
So yeah, our "welfare" kinda-sorta helps some people but mostly denies people and exists to be able to say "if they really deserved it, there would be help, everyone is just lazy."
But I digress.
I'm feeling a bit better because I just ate, actually - a FB friend literally ordered me a pizza and had it delivered to my apartment. <3 My online friends are awesome. But yeah, I am pretty isolated in person. I will go months a lot of the time without seeing a friend. I see my mom once a month. That's about it.
I just need to vent sometimes when I'm feeling really low and hopeless. Thank you for hearing me out. :)