Same here. My dad and two brothers are all dead. They were severe alcoholics. I was beaten every week by one of them (except my oldest brother). I know exactly what you just said in your post. Time helps and lots of meditation has helped me.
Same here. My dad and two brothers are all dead. They were severe alcoholics. I was beaten every week by one of them (except my oldest brother). I know exactly what you just said in your post. Time helps and lots of meditation has helped me.
I hear that time helps..... I'm just waiting for it. it's not like i did not know this would happen.... I had been expecting it... and thought I was prepared.... but I was so very wrong..... it just brought up so much that I had hidden away.... and I feel like I'm going crazy. Being severely depressed on top of it all really does not help.... I'm following you now.... thanks for the kind words.... and I am sorry for your losses as well....
Thank you. I also have depression. You are just a younger version of me. How I coped was I stayed busy in school. I made A's. I graduated early from High School and went to College. we had to be out of the house by our 18th birthday. I got my first degree at age 19. I have three now. I have never had alcohol in my life. I was terrified I would turn out like my Dad and Brothers. I am a research scientist and busy myself in my research and inventions. This has helped me by distracting me from my depression and horrifying child memories. Like you I do miss my Dad. He did have positive qualities. He was super funny and was a Genius (IQ rating). Stay in touch. I will help in any way that I can
will do, I did school for a long time, could never pass this one math class I needed to transfer..... took the class three times.... and each time did worse.... so I gave up... got two associate degrees and about 6 certificate programs.... but my depression and anxiety have kept me pretty much homebound for years. I have had a few months here and there, where I was good and could go out.... but then something would happen and it would put me back to step one.... the fear is paralyzing. so now... I'm doing therapy, to really get to the core....and it's some of the hardest work I have ever done....mentally exhausting. but I'm trying... cause I don't quit. ..... I just pause.
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looks great, but out of my price range..... I'm on disablity and I have no extra cash after I pay rent utilities, dog food, medications and laundry. maybe once i settle my dad's estate, I will have a tiny bit of money to splurge on myself.
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