Hello @ msvee, your story I lived close to you I have a neighbor friend who suffers from emotional depressive disorder. It is bipolar, I know it is difficult to get up when your mood prevents you and even more with the medication that is strong. Two months ago he suffered a depressive crisis and we, his friends, his family and neighbors, supported him with great affection. Just as you take your medicine, he also reads the Bible, praises God, seeks support in prayer, not as a fanatic, but as someone who seeks protection, believe me, the improvement and it is always like that, you are strong, what you lack is faith in God, you have to seek therapy with Christian people, try that, is the experience lived with my friend. I wish you luck, take care a lot @msvee