No pity or wisdom, but I am responding because I recently had a similar dark epiphany... I realized that all those people I care so much about, I want them to have their liberty, I want them to know the truth about everything, I want them to love each other... they do not give a fuck about me. Which meant that all that care I spent on them was a waste of my time and energy, so I quit. I still care about people, but not enough to offer to help any more. I am SO tired of helping people who can't even spare a kind word for me, so I quit. LOTS more energy, like IMMEDIATELY on excusing myself from the burden of caring about people who don't care about me. Just sayin'...