Derrick, I really cherish your vulnerability here. I think its important you honor your need for solitude. As long as it takes. I had a wonderful summer alone while I went through a huge transition in 2017. Solo hikes, daily meditation, lots of rest and sleep, yoga, journaling, hunckering down... it was followed by a fall full of travel and people, which I felt energetically available for and open to because I had so nourished myself the previous months... I am now about to embark on a too-full bus-house tour into a new country with many events, and I too feel the anxiety. Its in my chest, my heart, my gut. I value my quiet time. My solitude. Not giving myself away endlesslessly abd I did not nourish myself in that way before reaching our departure date..... anyway, I am questioning if we should bring more buzz to the HFT house right now with how you are feeling, would you rather us stay elsewhere? Or do the public event elsewhere and keep it quiet and personal while we are there? I love you Dearly and hope this reflection of yours inspires you to find community that can make good music AND honor the earth, I met people like this in Peru. Call them in.