Dating is hard

I didn't want to let him in but he was sweet and sneaked his way in. I know I did wrong and I apologized but he hurt me too. I don't know how to explain it, but I felt hurt that he got angry at me and I don't think I ever cried over a guy before. I felt like he was ignoring me and I hate that. I don't want him to see me ranting that's why I'm here and not on my other social media accounts because he follows me everywhere. I don't know how things can go back to the way they were after this. I told myself I wasn't going to let him do this to me, I wasn't going to let him break my heart. It's my first time of actually being in a relationship and it's just too hard. I'm scared he might not like me anymore, maybe not now but later. How will I cope. Get angry and and let's fight it out, don't ignore me. I can't stand it.
After writing all this, I've decided that I'm going to tell him that he hurt me. I can't stand not clearing the hair, cos how are we supposed to go back to how it used to be.