This completely resonates with me, except for the selling and what came after. but the parents part, your aim was true. "I spent my life up until they both died trying to please two Masters and forgetting about myself." I am still trying to do this right now. Figuring out what I want to be when I grow up, unfortunately, Ive already grown up and now I am trying to sprint and losing my breath. But I now breathe easy knowing that I am alive and still have time to do more. Thanks for sharing!